Computer is dying :(

Ok first off, my computer is dying (as you probably know from the title).

Sigh, I won't go into any detail about it because its very trivial.

Anyway because our computer is playing up, I had plenty of time to read, eat, ponder, be present and a little more reading.
Honestly this is a great book, its called the New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. If your wondering why i've become so "deep" recently its because I have been reading that book. Changed the way I look at life man......

So you should be seeing some changes around here once I figure out how to use blogger.com properly.

Mid-year exam

Is it that time of year again?
Yep.

Physics, uncertanties internal:
Not happy that I had to get up early, Had my cellphone set to 10 to 6 and as usual turned off the alarm while half asleep. Why did it have to disturb my dream? I have such random dreams, all i remember was I was getting my Mazda R-X8 a custom paint job, black with some decals on it.....
That was how my dream started, lol totally random.

Anyway I managed to stop myself falling back asleep and got out of bed when my ipod alarm which is set to 7 went off, lol.
Everything was going smoothly I was early for once. Walked to school, with random thoughts running through my head. Upon reaching the hall, everyone started to get their stuff and go in the hall. Whipped out my pencil case that has my calculator in it.......... @#$@!!!!!! No calculator, time 8:27, Exam start time 8:30, 30 seconds randomly asking people for a calcualtor.

Then someone told me to ask Sam because he has a spare. Couldn't find him, but I found Kevin with two, so I borrowed his. Kevin saved me from utter failure lol. However I think I still failed anyway.

Stats was much better, probabillity, I dont know why so many people find it sooooo hard. It has minimal maths replaced with maximal thinking, =). Anything without to much number crunching is good. I have come to the conlcusion that I need to practice simultaneous equations, I did the exam question and got a negative answer for a unknown that had to be positive, lol.

I have also come to the conclusion that I've sat at the computer as well, spent most of my time after school here lol, Im such a fatty lol.

Pondering

Sigh I guess its the end of the road for the IBO, just got a phone call yesterday confirming me as the NON-TRAVELLING reserve, I guess 5th in NZ isnt too bad. :(

Exams tommorrow, and while others went to school today to do their calculas mid year exam I was left at home with a free day :). However an idle mind is very dangerous isnt it, it turned its thought to scholarship, when instead I should have been studying for stats and phys. The trend of thought went like this:
School work------> Schol-----> requires a lot of study =(-----> already done quite a bit of bio study =( ----> chem, history and stats needs a lot of study =( --------> $$$$$$ :D------> Have a look at the exams....... lots of writing!! :(.

However an overiding voice in my head is telling me, top scholar bio........ Maybe that goal is possible >=).

But then I had one of those deep moments, why do we always constantly want to be the best. At the end of the day its because we want to feel superior to everyone else around us thinking that this will help us achieve happiness.
But then what do we do?
Do I just sit around and do nothing?
Let someone else take it?
What is the point?
So what if I get it?
So what if I don't?
Does it make a difference what we do?
Will I be statisifed by beating as many people as possible?
Is there something more important I should be aiming for?
Will getting it change who, "I" am?
Probably not.

Woodlice, Modelling and Simple Harmonic motion

Im quite dissapointed with my time management with my woodlice however im quite pround of completing majority between 8pm and 12:30 am. :D

And then the day slowly got worse when it came to stats... all good I was going well but time always works againist us.... I didnt even get up to the excellence part..pft @#!# another 3 E credits down the drain, I really hope that I scrape merit beacuase i didnt finish that part either.

And then a Physics test next period, note to self, Do the physics homework and atleast look at the textbook before the test, hopefully I get an A...... sigh thank god its the weekend :)

VICTORY!!!!!!!

After nearly 30 years of a bloody civil war Sri Lanka is now free from the LTTE after special forces captured the last LTTE controlled areas on the 18th.

:D

I wonder what a peaceful Sri Lanka will be like now, I havent got much more to say after about a year constantly checking the defence news I feel thankful its over :D.

Anyway, stupid open day today at school :(. Took me 2 hours to show the school around to 1 family, in the rain, how sad is that, sigh........

Isnt this sad/ touching

When trawling some defence blogs i found this:
In Iraq 2005, a special forces, major holding a child that was injured in a suicide bomb blast attacking a US patrol while they were surrounded by a group of about 25 children. The child died later in hospital. ="(

Goals.....

Goals..... well I tried to work on my goals today, much to Jenny's surprise.

After an hour of wasting my life at the computer playing Call of Duty 4, i decided to see how somebody would go about walking on a swiss ball, ( I can stand on our swiss ball wiht relative ease). Pluging in into google, i found nothing...... Unbelievable put yea, no one has done it and bragged about it all over the net.
Going onto youtube i found some cool videos of a guy doing a 50 lb dumbell lift while standing on a swiss ball! There was also one of a chip swing while on the ball, quite good even I wouldnt be able to do that.

Having seen how balanced I am, I promptly picked up the skatboard that lies in our garage and just rode..... kick push, kick push coast.... yea I already knew had to skate I just didnt try.... lol so thats one thing almost done, i just have to balance with my man bag on the board and see how I can avoid obstacles on the street ( people, dogsh*t, gravel and sticks) lol.
And for people who dont know what im talking about a swiss ball is what this guy is standing on at the top of the post.

Things to do before next year.

Learn how to:

1. Walk on a swiss ball
   
2. To do a back flip
3. To do a font flip lol
4. Tie a tie lol,
5. Ride a skateboard

Get:

1. My restricted lol
2. NCEA level 3 E Certificate lol (very unlikely)
   

Sinhala:
MUST understand, speak and be able to read and write a little bit, no more I can't bullsh*t. Im honestly cant take any more of it, nothing brings me down more than being voiceless in my mother tongue x(......................

sigh..... Im sure i've left something out, what do you guys think?

1. Grow taller
2. Get my full
3. Get stronger.
4. Juggling
5. Become a better cook
6. Learn how to play black jack
7. Learn how to sing and rap
8. Learn Sinhala sign language
9. Learn how to complete a rubix cube
10. Learn first aid.
    

Thanks guys!!!

A big shout out to every one who got me stuff, on my birthday, wished me one my birthday and who thought about me (good thoughts only >=) ) on my birthday. Though i was feeling kinda sick on the 13th it was a good day ^^.

You guys are never too far from my mind, which one day I will rid myself of so I'll have to find another way to think about you :D.

Reflections of a year....

Its the end of another year of life, slowly it passes us by, yet on the otherside of the coin life passes us quickly as the mind potrays in its fluid states of happyness and despair. Yet when we are in peace, life doesn't seem to slip out of our hands and time is no longer an issue and we are free of the shackles of the past and the fog of the future....... ok thats me gone on a spiritual tangent sorry guys.

Overall I suppose the last year has been on of great change, both physically, emotionally, mentally and also i guess spritiually.Before I never stopped to look back and obsevre my past as someone who is removed from it. Now I can see that I am now were near my "full development" though to some of you this may seem so plain to see however it is quite an important thing to realise in life, that we continue to be modelled by, not only our experiences but also the way we reacted to them.

At the same time last year I was just a boy, and in another years time I may reflect back and say that I was still a boy now, but I know for sure that I am far more mature now and I can confidently say that the way I observe my life has changed.

I've met heaps of people over this year and some of you I have got to know quite well =) and I would like to thank you guys for umm.... just being there lol.

I hope next year would have just as much realisation and x100 more good times with the people who care. =)

Peaceout....

My bloody itunes

Recently, (nearly the last month) I have been a dejected man...., y? Because my itunes is screwed up. Now I know most people out there sont think this is a big deal but I love getting new music, but now, sigh. :( Im stuck to listening to the same old stuff i put on my little ipod.

OMG im blogging!

Yea, after having a blogger account for over a year I thought in the last few days, now is a good time to start blog.... they say the mind uses us for its own good and not the other way around. Its funny that when I choose to do things its when im the most busy. Phhft, enough with that crap, I set up this blog and its look empty and cheesy.... so maybe in the next few days I'll sort it out.