The Weekend

(Loling at the santa hat)
Anyway, this weekend was pretty, busy I guess. Started it with new workout plan, that involves a lot of recovery days and intense workouts, thats what I need! So that means more muscle, less time working out, what more do you want?

And that was my saturday morning sorted, just had to think about Russel's " 18th party" (laser strike) me and Hao decided not to go to the swimming part, he was "not keen", I didn't want the life guard to come and save me haha. So then I thought, Russels party, we havn't even got him anything! So then me and Hao hutted down to Westfield for something, we couldn't find anything creative so we bought him a $20 Dick Smith voucher, and split the cost >< years ="(.">< 3 guys sharing a $20 voucher was a little too cheap for me. hey we did a lot better than most of the people who turned up at laser strike and gave him nothing.

Laser strike, not really my choice of 18th B'dae event but there you go, exactly the same as his 17th (and probs 16th but I don't know). But this thing indicated that exactly a year had past since me and Hao became closer (as friends lol). He came over to my house and we walked to the bus stop, 16 mins 80 for the next bus, man the busses suck at night! it was only 5:55 on a sat!.
Then it was an hour of talking to Hao till we arrived at laser strike to see nobody else was there.... the birthday boy didn't arrive till 20min after he said to come, tut tut. Then the guy gave us random teams, gay! Well my team won anyway =) and guess who got the highest score *ME* =D all those hours spent playing call of duty on wii were not wasted!

Its amazing how sweaty one gets when taking laser strike seriously. John took off his jacket to show of his guns, and everyone hutted down to BK, except Nick and Alistair and we spent an hour there, talking about, guy stuff haha. Me and John walked into BK and jokingly said we should get something from countdown to be healthy, omg great idea, lol Primo extremo!

Then it was the bus ride home, more guy talk with Hao, man like 3 hours at a stretch! pretty extreme. not very exciting but yea, and i can't really be stuffed talking about Sunday so yea that it from me

Peace``

Sooo tired

right now I feel so tired, I don't even know why im bothering to write up a blog post, quite frankly i don't have much ryhme or reason for what I have been doing lately. But anyway its all because I got semi-woken up at about 5:30, and then my mind started racing. Seriously thinking is a b*tch especially when its early in the morning. Fine ok sometimes we all wake up early in the morning and start thinking sometimes, but the annoying thing that tends to happen, is that we fall back to sleep, often at the wrong time. I finally decided to wake up to 10 to 6, stuff that I'll just go to bed till about 7 just 10 mins. Alarm goes of 10 past 7 result, tired, confused, late for school, and too tired to do any weights now. }=@

True lust! The sexiest thing on four wheels!

OMG, this car is to good to describe with words, the Mclaren F1 LM, its beautiful! It's also athletic too, 0-60 mph in 3.2 seconds! And a top speed of 391 kph. Not really a family car, just a 3 seater coupe and has a price tag of about $4 million US. (I want this machine!)

Driving, driving and more driving .....

Look, I thought I was going pretty pro in our little beast of a diesel car Vauxhall Astra 92 (imagine if the car above was white). But then the driving instructor got me to go in his Mazda 2.... result.. fail. The controls for the accelerator and the clutch were so much lighter he was like ok I'll just let you drive for 10 mins... 1:30 min later.... ok just stop here on the side 8( lol.
Lets just say that now I appreciate the old astra, I actually like it! Never thought I'll ever say that in my life! lol.

Anger

See if you feel this,

So mad, But why? Because I feel that I could be doing so much better, failing to remember that each experience in life is meant to maximise our spiritual growth.

I'm angry. At what? At who? Myself, always frustrated at the endless missed opportunities, forgiving others but I have never forgiven myself. I dwell in the past and imagine how my life situation would have turned out if I been even slightly less lazy or incompetent, while developing a venomous jealousy and contempt of this illusionary destiny.

After being told to forgive others and not to blame others, I have forgotten not to blame and to forgive the person closest to me, the one that is with me until the end for his failures and short comings. What a critical double standard.

Stuck in a rut as I (stupidly) try and dig myself out of a hole, that began as a small depression in the earth now I stand, dwarfed in a crater, thus realizing that all I needed to do was to step up. However I find myself so deep, that I must climb to escape. As I release the ink onto this page, I'm climbing back up to a beautiful reality.

Peace~

Life is fickle

Life is quite fickle, just one small interaction, a few words, a body language cue or even just a misunderstanding between two people can create such unfounded feelings of both hollow happiness and sadness. With the former being all too fragile. Only a still and clear mind can be immune to these fluctuations in emotion. Nothing much to say right now..... Im actually getting onto my work, except the yo-yo which I don't like to do.

Reminiscing: Trade me

Got bored so looked back at some of my feedback on trade me, this one always cracks me up big time thought I would share it with you:

	2 Nov 2007
	Deal concluded successfully but left feeling strangely discomforted, no friendly salutation on email and never meet trader (me) when picking up goods, just an uncertain but polite young boy who had the goods ready for me(me). No extra charge for friendly smiles

LMAO! HAHA! :D