Attack of the viruses....

Yes im sick, damn it. Definately something viral, probably some strain of influenza hopefully not H1N1 ae. Guess I just have to sit and rest up and try not to pass it on.... or not >:) lol jj. O speaking of spreading viruses, there was something on the news about some bi guy who went around spreading HIV to everyone. Fankly its quite digusting and he should be executed or something.

Peace``

What happened to happiness?

Looks like its going to be the coldest winter I've ever lived through this year and I ain't talking about the temperature.....

Today can be summarised as fustration and isolation. Certainly doesn't make one feel good and what is worse im not too sure why i feel like this. Ironically the time that im left alone the least I feel the most isolated. What is doubly ironic is the explanation that maybe im feeling how different I am to others when in reality our minds all have the same sturcture just differing content.

What happened to happiness? What happened to not worrying about stuff? Im not even sure if I am worrying.....Urgh... I can't wait till summer, then I can just sit outside and do nothing and forget everything for a moment and just absorb the energy of the enviroment. I don't want to be anything special, I just need to be.


In other news did any of you guys see that thing on close up where a little kid stole a bike, far out they start young these days. I dont think the parents came foward either.

Better get back onto my history work, O that reminds me.
Im studying the Battle of Okinawa. Just a word of advice to those who read my blog. Though it is unlikely, If anyone of you, becomes the leader of a country, avoid war at all costs. Well maybe not all costs, and especially not with people more powerful than you and definatly not when you have no idea what you are doing. Man, Okinawa was a massacre.

Anyways feeling better now, peace~~ George

Sigh....

Rough day, I've just had enough. I just want to be, there's too much stuff to think about. I've now accepted that I'm not going to Japan, urgh hope is nearly as horrible as fear. Acutually coming to think of it, its worse, when you get over a fear you feel free while when you get over hope you feel defeated. I guess now I can appreciate what it means when both hope and fear are just illusions of the ego.

So as I've been thinking a lot, when I was coming out of the shower that we ultimately want two things in life (from other people) :

1. Love

2. Respect

Everything else we desire ultimatley comes from these two basic human needs, and unlike other wants they are pure and are not harmful to others.

Shoutout to Jenny, Happy 18th birthday to that girl,
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For the record

Nothing much new, dont usually have the time to come one here every time I see something new. Lets see, haircut.... I dont know what people had againist my sideburns, they were beautiful. After I got my haircut my mums like "You look hideous with those things [sideburns]." Bloody hell, people have no sense of good facial hair these days, so i trimmed it a bit, a very sad time lol. So for the record I grew my sideburns below my jaw level. Now they live just below my ear, ooo so rebelious.

What else? Does anyone else get pissed off with all this dog sh*t lying around? Its everywhere. My neighbour's dog is the worst, its trying to create a roadblock for pedestrians along the shared driveway. What's wrong with this you may ask? Its bloody annoying, when you have to whip out our phone as a light and move at snail pace to avoid sh*t when you want to get home and eat your food! And plus the dog is not even cute! Moral of the story, SORT YOUR SH*T OUT!!!!!

O and me and Hao customized his board,(I think I'll call it the wunga board) lol have a look at it when he brings it to school next. You may see me skating to school as well, when im sure im not going make a fool of myself lol. =)

Wii update:
Boxing 2950 but now the rate of increase is reducing, will Naveen make it to 3000?
Golf:800+, 200 more to go pro in all sports

BIO update:
Why does physiology take so long to do????

Fitness update:
Poor, due to spending too much time on the above. Haven't gone for a run in ages....

Peace``

Stuff

Wow haven't blogged in over a week =O. So what's new? Lets see in that time I have become a pro wii baseballer, that makes me a pro in 4 wii sports, with only golf left, then i'll be totally pro.
The wii boxing is going alright ae, 2900+ and still going but my rate of increase is slowly decrease is similar to that of a logistic curve. Hopefully it will let me get to 3000 points =). Lets see what else, o I've deceided that maybe I should be studying bio again in the remote chance that I do go, this non-travelling reserve position is a m@!@$!@$!$ing b!@$h, >8( ~~~~~ anyway Iv'e done the easy subjects of ecology and animal behaviour (20%) and now im working on phylogenetics, Ive got phylogenetic notes on my floor and the curl up like scholar's scrolls lol. And that's basically it....
O swine flu, now everyone is on swine flu alert, was a bit creeped out when the person I was partnered up with was sniffling... O_o its not as bad as the hype makes it out to be, it is slightly less lethal than regular influenza A.

Peaceout... ... ... ~~~

Mind dump: Guilt......

My mum has suddenly changed, I get comments like:

Your not eating enough, eat somemore (ok ive heard that all my life)
Your not tall enough eat more
Your not reaching your potential
Your not eating enough protein
You're puny *grabs ribs*
You go back to sleep
You're asking too much of yourself
You're not putting on any muscle
You're too thin eat more
Take more rice
Take more meat
Here I bought you some food
Look at your sister why can't you just eat like she does
Here i'll do that for you...

General message:
EAT MORE!!!!!
GROW!!!!!!
GAIN WEIGHT!!!

0_o What has got into my mum?
Maybe the fact that i'll be leaving next year.... maybe the fact that all shorter women want their sons to grow tall. What happened to looks are only skin deep? pfft

Anyway, I actually feel kind of guilty now. Before it was like, its kinda hard to explain, but anyway now I feel guilty that my family has put so much investment into me. I feel obliged *spelling* too make them feel 'proud' of me. Its just everything I do I rarely give it my best shot these days. Whether I do well or do bad. Back in the day when your parents ask you if you had tried your best, the immediate reply in your mind in YES! But now I know i havent tried my best, im always slacking of, at any turn. The main one that sticks out to me is ringing my mum after the bio theory exam, (mum)Its ok what you get as long as you tried your hardest .......... o_0 (me) ummm........

Its like untapped potential, i know that they are happy with what I get but I know i could do better, everything I do could have been done better, if i just pushed myself that little bit further.

meh... Just saw a documentary about an institute for disabled kids in Bulgaria. All I know is that im thankful for the life stituation im in now,some of the pain and neglect I saw made me want to throw up, hell exists on earth aswell.........

Dick Smith.....

Today was such a lax, day, a day dedicated to doing absolutly no work. Yesterday evening I had an urge to play wii sports, so today I fufilled that urge. About half an hour of wii boxing in the morning. Dodge dodge, Jab+cross, dodge, dodge, Jab+ cross, KO!!!!. lol thats basically how it goes.

Then went to the mall to meet up with some of the boys. Got a chance to check out the upstairs of the mall, looks all new and big, with lots of stores that are big and expensive, with stuff I probably won't be able to afford. Quite impressive for little chch I think. Just to think when my family came here, it wasn't even called westfield! Riccarton mall, was just like bush inn, and we had a house in a dodgy area just near it.

Anyway the big new Dick Smith store, (lol) was packed. Hao and Timmy were telling me how there was four lines from the car park downstairs to dick smith. :0
I might go there tommorrow to see a laptop with dad (and hopefully getting it :D).

Then got home, more wii boxing. I managed to get up to 2696 skill points now and there ain't no sign of reaching a limit. Im trying to find the inbuilt limit to skil at wii boxing, lol.

Peace---- lol

Totally average week...

Yes average.....
Nothing to exciting or special, got the exam results back
Physics- Fail
Stats- M Probability
E- linear equations
Modelling Internal E

So that racks up my E total to a tiny 5 credits. Honestly I've either failed or got E in all the internals ive got back so far, however ive failed a total of 7 credits already in internals, = O. No, Naveen didn't fail, no... = 0
You know, a year ago I would have pulled by hair out, Im balding anyway but nevermind about this. But Now im wiser and now I realise that it isn't worth worrying about these sorts of things. Acutally anything that is impermanent is not worth stressing about because of course these are not going to last.

And schol, Ive asked a few people and decided that physics schol is not worth doing, so that leaves Bio, Chem, History and Stats. That means a lot of study for hist and stats, but after bio camp, I can do it :D. Just need to remember to tell Mr Summerfield ae.


Nothing lasts.

Read those two words again and again to get what I mean.
Somehow i've ended with a philosophical note, lol.